-You know what? I love the chaos. I love the difficult situations and finding the right solutions. Every wound is about to heal. Guess what, I'll heal yours with my love. It's a strong, fast and happy healing. Running through your veins, your mind. The second fact is, that the things you said to me, force me to love you so hard. If you say more, I would fall for you. The things you are saying are still things I have never heard in my whole life.
I get drowsy and quiet, when there are too many people around me. Like that one Friday when we were standing outside the groceriestore and you asked me if I was okay so far. I tend to not tell the whole truth in situations like that, cause I want to avoid feeling weak and useless..
-You told me your story for what? Right. To show me what you are, what you have, which way I have to go when I'm with you. Everything you told me, it was hard, but still, I want to go this way. I'm a man and you are my girl. It's not about avoiding feeling weak and useless. It's normal, if you want to say it like that. I'm here to help you out. So you can hold onto me and get over this empty hole. I can't even hold back all of my feelings and you shouldn't do that either. Not only because you're my girl, but because you're human.
It's scary sometimes. My love for you grows bigger with every hour we spend with each other, but I'm always scared to lose you.. It's hard to explain and I want to trust you with everything, but it's easier said than done. At least I know it's really me and not you in this part. But that doesn't make it easier, you know?
I hate myself sometimes...
-What makes people leave? Hard situations, no love, no support, illness. We have beautiful situations on every day we are together, we're getting closer. I don't think it's growing in hours, it's seconds, I guess. Our family, our friends, they're all supporting us. My family already jokes about marriage. But what we really have in common, is that one thing in our mind.
I'll never run away, because... well. I'm too lazy.
Kiddin'.
This thing between us is so magnificent. In no time you'll understand what I'm talking about. Your worries are completely normal but they're still sweet in my eyes. They show me how much you love me.
I can't remember loving someone like I love you. Do you know that? Can you see and feel it? I'm such a douchebag from time to time and I'm afraid, you'll get sick of it. But let me tell you, I'm only playing the asshole, to not let anyone see how much I really care. It's a habit and I hate it. Hate it...
-It's not something you did wrong. You think of it as a habit. But for me, you're just showing your pride. There's a sentence I've memorized for so long.
"Every king needs his queen."
It's pretty much what you show me everyday. I'll never get sick of your love. Because sometimes, you tell me, you hate me, out of fun. So you see, it doesn't make sense. You showed your inner self to me, from the very beginning, so what could be worse than this?
Your memory, you have it in your hidden lockbox in your head. I don't know if I'm different, but our relationship is different, compared to others. You hate the thoughts that you have, but for me it's to get your mind changed. So you can throw this habit away and you love yourself just like I do. And now kiss me, you douchebag.
